{"id":69,"date":"2024-12-28T12:41:58","date_gmt":"2024-12-28T12:41:58","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/szum.irakusa.art\/?p=69"},"modified":"2025-02-05T11:23:33","modified_gmt":"2025-02-05T11:23:33","slug":"69","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/szum.irakusa.art\/index.php\/2024\/12\/28\/69\/","title":{"rendered":"Upadek"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Zwracam na chodnik pian\u0119 z na\u0142ogu. <br>Skr\u0119cam powoli w przypadkowe ulice. <br>\u015alepn\u0105ce oczy \u015bwiec\u0105 pr\u00f3\u017cno\u015bci\u0105. <br>Latarnie j\u0119cz\u0105, zm\u0119czone wilgoci\u0105. <br>Szept zgrzytu sumienia, doci\u0105\u017ca ramiona. <br>Pe\u0142zam po \u015bladach niespe\u0142nionych pragnie\u0144. <br>Otwieram pozamykane w s\u0142owach melodie. <br>Z\u0142udzenia mnie pchaj\u0105 w ciemne hotele. <br>Ka\u0142u\u017ce wlewaj\u0105 si\u0119 w my\u015bli rozmyte. <br>Czarny jest piasek na brzegu tej pla\u017cy. <br>Podnosz\u0119 g\u0142ow\u0119 ci\u0119\u017ck\u0105 od stali. <br>Upadam i wstaj\u0119 po raz ostatni. <br><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Czo\u0142gaj\u0105c si\u0119 jeszcze w ciekn\u0105cych marzeniach, <br>bij\u0105c z \u017ca\u0142osnym oporem mych ruch\u00f3w, <br>wchodz\u0119 do jasnej sali ze s\u0142o\u0144ca i \u017cywcem p\u0142on\u0119 &#8211; nie czuj\u0105c gor\u0105ca. <br>Ten obraz o\u017cywia ducha mojego, <br>niszczy pok\u0142ady ciemno\u015bci przekl\u0119tej, <br>zabija i wlecze za sob\u0105 trupa, <br>wywleka \u017cy\u0142y, niczego nie szuka. <br><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Powoli wpadam w niemoc bezpieczn\u0105, <br>odda\u0142am od siebie wszystkie pragnienia, <br>\u017cyj\u0119 z poczuciem w\u0142asnego syfu, <br>nie szukam na si\u0142\u0119 \u0142ez oczyszczenia. <br>Kiedy uciekam tak sam przed sob\u0105, <br>ze strachu k\u0142aniam si\u0119 wszystkim przekl\u0119tym. <br>Po drugiej stronie z pogrzebu wracasz, <br>sw\u00f3j dzie\u0144 ubra\u0142a\u015b sukienk\u0105 bez ramion.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Szeptem tej nocy wyrwa\u0142a\u015b mi serce, <br>my\u015bla\u0142em, \u017ce po to by je nie\u015b\u0107 za sob\u0105. <br>Lecz z dziwnym u\u015bmiechem na twarzy, <br>odesz\u0142a\u015b w ch\u0142\u00f3d d\u0142oni, uczucie trwoni\u0105c. <br>W\u015br\u00f3d dr\u00f3g, kt\u00f3re potem nadesz\u0142y, <br>py\u0142 to ju\u017c tylko suche wspomnienie, <br>nie p\u00f3jd\u0119 dalej, nic ju\u017c nie znajd\u0119, <br>wiem gdzie prowadzi k\u0142amstwo tych zdarze\u0144.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Tadeusz Pie\u0144<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Zwracam na chodnik pian\u0119 z na\u0142ogu. Skr\u0119cam powoli w przypadkowe ulice. \u015alepn\u0105ce oczy \u015bwiec\u0105 pr\u00f3\u017cno\u015bci\u0105. Latarnie j\u0119cz\u0105, zm\u0119czone wilgoci\u0105. Szept zgrzytu sumienia, doci\u0105\u017ca ramiona. Pe\u0142zam po \u015bladach niespe\u0142nionych pragnie\u0144. Otwieram pozamykane w s\u0142owach melodie. Z\u0142udzenia mnie pchaj\u0105 w ciemne hotele. Ka\u0142u\u017ce wlewaj\u0105 si\u0119 w my\u015bli rozmyte. Czarny jest piasek na brzegu tej pla\u017cy. Podnosz\u0119 g\u0142ow\u0119 [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":95,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-69","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-mysli-jak-sny"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/szum.irakusa.art\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/69","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/szum.irakusa.art\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/szum.irakusa.art\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/szum.irakusa.art\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/szum.irakusa.art\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=69"}],"version-history":[{"count":9,"href":"https:\/\/szum.irakusa.art\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/69\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":124,"href":"https:\/\/szum.irakusa.art\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/69\/revisions\/124"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/szum.irakusa.art\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/95"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/szum.irakusa.art\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=69"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/szum.irakusa.art\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=69"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/szum.irakusa.art\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=69"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}